Showing posts with label the what ifs. Show all posts
Showing posts with label the what ifs. Show all posts

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Getting Over the What-Ifs

I'm tired today. So, so tired. I had one of those nights last night -- the kind where you awaken at 3:45 in the morning and your head instantly floods with 'what ifs'. So in the interest of sharing my worries to make them smaller, lucky lucky you gets to read about them! How's that for blog therapy?

A small selection of things rattling around my brain last night:
  • What if I can't get my novel exactly where I want it to be?
  • What if people hate it, what if it flops, etc etc?
  • What if I never make it as a writer?
  • What if I have to go back to work -- how will I explain a three-year absence?
  • What if I can't focus tomorrow because I'm so tired?
  • What if I let my husband down by not using my 'time-off' wisely?
  • What if I can't sustain a writing career?
  • How will I ever retire on a non-existent pension?

I think I'll stop there; I don't want to bring you all down! What I'd like to know is why people don't ask themselves positive what-ifs in the middle of the night? Imagine this:

  • What if I become a best-selling author?
  • What if I make enough money to have financial security?
  • What if my husband and family are just so proud they can't stop telling me?
  • What if I write a book every year, until I choose to stop writing -- if ever I want to?
  • What if I believe in myself and have the confidence and focus I need?

You know, strangely, I do feel a whole lot better now!

What are your what-ifs, positive or negative?